Friends told me I've become confident in things.
A fact that I wouldn't deny.

I appear jolly, but I feel tormented inside in actual fact.
I have no choice but to pretend to be me when I am no longer me.
What holds me, after all.

不是故意..

我以為惡夢 不會一直纏著我

我以為頭痛 閉上眼就痊癒了

我只聽 你愛聽的歌 我只做 你的朋友

我變得沉默 傷心也不願開口

我變了好多 是否更靠近你呢

等一個 固執的如果 如果你懂我為什麼就夠了

你別擔心 我 不怕一個人站在雨裡

除了你 我找不到能快樂的意義

眼淚 帶給你的壓力太清晰 我真的不是故意

不是故意 讓自己變得不再像自己

為了你 拼命想拿一百分而努力

你卻 離我越來越遠的距離 直到我失去你 真的不是故意

Birthday Dinner 2011

Wow! I finally get to celebrate my birthday with my lovely college friends this year due to the reason most of them couldn't make it on December in the past few years since they go back to home town on holidays. This has been one of my most memorable and unforgettable birthday in my life. Sincerely I appreciate it very much..the awesome dinner party, all my beloved friends who attended, the delicious ice cream cake, the great present, all the birthday wishes and photos, and a very big thank you to the person who had organized this party for me! You know who you are. ;)

Loads of photos taken that night. I only chose the better ones which include myself inside though, hahaha! (You know la I'm sorta the 自恋 type of person.) :P But I think everyone is at least included in the photos here. Some photos were still not uploaded yet by another few camera owners when I'm writing this post, so don't feel bad if you don't see your pretty faces in some particular photos here. xD And sorry sorry sorry to those whom I didn't take photo personally with, as I was too excited that night and eventually I forgot to approach you for photo. T.T Don't worry, you will definitely be in the group photos here! ;) Now I shall let the pictures do the talking!  

 ;D

 Bear and Me~

(walao eh I look fcking lengzai lo! haha)

Meimei and Me~ 

(thanks for coming my besttt jimui hehe! muackz~)

Hor Sin Gu / See Yee and Me~ 

(at last you didn't break your promise haha! sincerely, thank you for attending ya my buddy. muackz~) 

 Cheryl and Me~

(thank you leng lui for choosing the present for me! love it very much heheee. <3)

 Sook Wai and Me~

(太王太后 you looked great that night and 小王子 enjoyed the night very much too! ^^)

 Doris and Me~

(hey my little girl friend thanks for the party wow! <3 xD)

 Cammie and Me~

(thanks for coming cammie! stay pretty~~! xDDD)

 Kaizhen and Me~

(this is acting cool, not acting cute! xoxo xP)

 Wai Tuck, Valery and Me~

(thanks for coming ehh the lovely 金童玉女! =P)

 Group photo~

From left to right: Janice, Me, Eva, Kaizhen

Group photo~ 

From left to right - top: Meimei, Charles, See Yee

From left to right - bottom: Joseph, Me, Keeyin

 Group photo~ 

From left to right: Enoch, Me, Doris, Zack, Charles

Group photo~

From left to right: Jun Yuan, Keeyin, Me, Kaizhen 

 Group photo~ 

Group photo~ (so many lenglui O.O) 

From left to right: Zi Qi, Janice, Kaizhen, Ally, Cammie, Valerie 

Group photo~ 

Group photo~ (四大才子 of the Food Science! =P） 

Group photo~ (again so many lenglui O.O)

 Wow...~ 

 Making wishes... =)

 Thanks for the cake, it was delicious!

 Also I love the present very much! hehehe =P

 ^o^

So touched~ xD 

Lastly, my personal adorable picture! xD

ONCE AGAIN, THANK YOU ALL MY BELOVED FRIENDS... BFF! <3

It's been so LONG ever since I wrote a normal post here. 

Ya as usual, life still goes on, still with loads of ups and downs of course. 

Not trying to compliment or boast, I do feel that I've grown up a little ever since don't-know-when. 

Perhaps, after the periods of so-called "downs" in my life some time ago. 

I could have been taking things too serious though, sometimes. 

To live your life simple, you have to see things simple as well. 

Sounds easy, huh? Yet it is so tough when it comes to action.

I have tried not to complicate my life, my thoughts. 

However, human being sometimes just has to dig a hole and jump into it himself, for fun huh?

As though overcoming hardship really makes him stronger over time.

Well, it's indeed true though.

But bear in mind, people are not always that fortunate and capable of dealing with every trouble in their life. 

There are times when people can be beaten down and get devastated so easily.

Blaa, I just wanna conclude that after all I'm still living my life on my own, without the shades of anyone else. I don't live for others, but myself, hell ya!

Nuff said, kthxbye. :)

     

其实，你一直在我心裡。

打从某天起，好像跟你没那麼好了，见面少了，电话也少了；孤单的时候，忍住没找你。

我亲爱的朋友，并不是你做了什麼，而是我的故事变复杂了，有些话不知道从何说起，不如不

说；有些秘密只能藏在心底，独自承担。

不想对你说谎，更害怕你痛心的责备，於是只好假装忘了你。

其实，你一直在我心裡。

最美的笑：

1.被人误解的时候微微一笑，是一种素养；

2.受委屈的时候坦然一笑，是一种大度；

3.吃亏的时候开心一笑，是一种豁达；

4.无奈的时候达观一笑，是一种境界；

5.危难的时候泰然一笑，是一种大气；

6.被轻蔑的时候平静一笑，是一种自信。

Random post

Time really flies! Although it's really a sad thing to say, I have to agree with what most of my friends told me, "kevin arrr, you're old already larrr, come on, face the reality man!". Till now I still find it hard to believe I am actually dealing with my final year project now. I even got my proposal presentation done! All these have always seemed very far away to me when I was still in first year. That is, as a consequence, I still hardly feel ready just for this at the moment. That's the reason I said that time does fly! How I wish that the time could go backwards, retuning everything to its original state, where things were simpler, and better, to an extent...

I seem to relax too much, although I'm having sem break. I was supposed to start my fyp research as soon as I finished my finals. BUT I REALLY DON'T HAVE THE MOOD YET LAR! I hope my lecturer won't screw me oh no! I promise I will start on next week. =P Just lemme enjoy to the max first in this just one week! Most of my coursemates went back to their hometown, so I have no choice but to rot at home these few days. I'm still trying to drag a few of my secondary school friends to hang out for some movies and yumchar sessions though. Argh! I wanted to watch FD5 but they teased me for being a sadism who enjoys watching how people die. Indeed, I am quite a person who really enjoys that. lol! kidding only.

To all students out there, Neway is having a promotion for you all! I went there last week with my friends, and the bill actually surprised me when it came. I expected to be paying 20 buckz as we have sang for quite long, about 5 hours. I reckoned it's the normal price we will have to pay as usual. When the waitress mentioned 50 buckz (there were five of us), two thoughts arouse in my mind immediately, either I heard wrongly or she told the wrong amount. But I was wrong! YES, we only had to pay 10 buckz (each person), for the 5-hour singing, free-flow drinks, salad buffet, one designated drink and meal from menu! The cheapest rate I have ever had to pay for all these I could get as mentioned above. No kidding. I really hope to visit again next semester with my friends. Being student is really nice wey. I only have one more year to enjoy this kind of privilege. =D     

❤ 魔羯座 ❤ 12/21 - 01/20 ★

年轻的魔羯都是很单纯的，我想他们也不会知道自己将从天使变成恶魔，魔羯座的人天生善​良，感情也都很脆弱，也许会因为一些很小的事情难过很长时间，所以他们通常在表面表现​的酷酷的与事隔离的样子，其实他们只是不希望让别人看到他脆弱的一面，坚强，理智，承​受是魔羯的代名词，他们并不是很随便的表达自己所想，他们希望了解身边所有人的性格，​并不是因为好奇，好象只是因为一种安全感，为了保护自己魔羯生出了一种特殊能力。

魔羯相对任何星座，能在最短时间看出一个人的性格，无论他们在如何隐藏，这点很像天蝎​，但是他们却看不出对方的心，他们很容易就会了解到他们身边每一个人的优缺点，但是他​们通常不会说出来，也不会太介意，所有的魔羯都很包容对方请记得，如果有一只魔羯指出​你的缺点那一定是友善的，虽然他们会用一种讽刺的口气来指出。

所有魔羯都拥有２个性格，只是大部分魔羯都不愿意去接受，因为他们希望自己永远的傻傻​的活下去，魔羯的坏可以媲美过所有星座，也许他们不相信，但是随着时间的积累魔羯的人​在慢慢变坏，其实这也是一种自我保护，他们需要知道了解自己最后的一张王牌，做不做就​看对方是否达到让魔羯抱负的地步了，这并不是在表扬，似乎用阴险可以形容，当魔羯讨厌​一个人的时候那就是一种绝对，魔羯不会随便讨厌一个人，但是如果哪个人做的太过分，这​个人会从魔羯心底彻底抹杀，如果这个人激怒了魔羯，呵呵那么这个人就只能等着灾难的降​临。

魔羯是个比较城府的人，他们不会表面去得罪了，但是他们会计划着让这个人知道他所做的​事情将会给自己带来多大的回报，魔羯的报复手段极其残忍，他会加倍的还给你，（如果你​有一天遭受到摸名的灾难那么你去想想你在什么时候得罪了魔羯）魔羯并不会随便的去加害​一个人，因为魔羯也讨厌自己的坏，他们是天才的杀手，一切的一切从很早以前就做好计划​，而且这些计划在没有事件出现前他们就在考虑如何完美并无破绽的进行报复计划，也许这​些和他的悲观有些联系，魔羯的人很了解世界，但他们固执的相信美好尽管自己知道那是不​可能的，大部分魔羯都讨厌坏坏的自己，当然想抛弃自己是不可能的。

[♥] 朋友：最喜欢装傻的星座 [♥]

魔羯的人都很没有安全感，他们喜欢在任何人面前装傻，这可不是一般的装傻能力，魔羯人​聪明就在于这点，他们认为只有傻子在会不牵扯到任何伤害，与其做一个聪明的人不如当一​个傻子平凡而又随意，如果不是值得魔羯相信的朋友魔羯永远不会让对方知道自己会有智慧​，而无论安全与不安全魔羯对朋友都很真，他们很珍惜些朋友。

他们最希望获得朋友的信任，如果从一个朋友那里得不到信任，他不会再与这个朋友交往下​去．和魔羯接触过的人都会认为他们脾气很好，好的似乎发傻，其实他们并不是脾气好，只​是他们很会装，因为他们了解身边的朋友的所有性格，所以他们在包容对方，就算你做了什​么过分的事，他们也早就想考虑好如果对方为什么会这样做，最明显一点，你们可以去看看​身边魔羯的朋友，无论你怎么做那些魔羯都不会很惊讶的，其实他们已经知道你为什么会这​样了．魔羯的交友观也很随便，他们可能会和贵族很好，也可能会和乞丐聊天，一切的一切​只是心灵的交往，很少有魔羯会有势力眼，除非你这个人品太差了。

[♥] 感情：超级白痴 [♥]

魔羯的人傻的可以，他们并不了解爱情，但是他们只知道爱的感觉，对于他们任何感情的表​达都是一种感觉，他们很认真的感受每一个感觉，大部分感觉都可以一个人去感觉，最失败​的爱却要两个人，傻傻的魔羯一开始会认为，爱你是我自己的事情和你没关系，可是到后来​越来越感觉不是滋味，于是开始对对方表白，表白成功后却不知道如何走下一步，也许是太​不浪漫在作祟，魔羯的人可能会拿任何事情开玩笑，但是在爱情方面只要他说出”我爱你”​或者话题谈到将来结婚，那么他绝对不是在开玩笑，魔羯很物质，但是这点和金牛处女不一​样，他们的物质表现在爱上，他们认为给所爱的人带来无限的物质的就是最大的幸福，因为​他们很自卑，唯一能用自己努力获得来的就只有物质了。

当自己努力的去让自己所爱的人幸福的时候，自己所爱的人却因为其他的其他离开了他，而​到最后自己却不明白自己到底做错了什么，真是可怜的家伙们。

[♥] 追求: [♥] 魔羯的追求是认真的，只要对方不让魔羯认为完全没有机会，魔羯就会像疯子一样的追求着​，他们其实对自己非常没有信心，唯一的动力只是相信自己在爱着，为了对的起自己的感情​，为了认真的去爱一回．

[♥] 被追求: [♥] 魔羯对于不喜欢的人不会给予任何机会，魔羯的人很善良，而且他们知道长痛不如短痛的道​理，如果魔羯勉强接受了你，那也是出于一种同情心，但是交往没几天他们就开始内疚，他​们认为怜悯的爱对追求者来说是一种伤害，他们会尽量的躲避并且对追求者很冷淡追求者尽​量的让追求者开始讨厌她／他．如果追求者不理解的话，放心最长不超过一年，魔羯会很理​智的告诉你别在联系了，她／他会消失的无影无纵．

[♥] 拒绝: [♥] 如果魔羯真的爱了就不会去拒绝你，永远不会。

[♥] 被拒绝: [♥] 魔羯比任何一个星座对感情都很认真，恢复伤痕的时间也很长，他们会选择消失，这样对你​对他都有好处，因为他怕多看你一眼 而又再次无法自拔他怕再多看你一眼心如刀割。




准得可怕！！

朋友？知己？

其实，朋友，是可以分很多种的。

有你可以和他倾诉通宵的……

有你和他只需偶尔闲聊，一起吃个饭，联络感情的……

有你见面打了个招呼，就冷冷地各走各的……

若有一天你发现，从头到尾原来是你太过重视自己，而对方也许从来没把你看得那么重要，你的感觉会如何？你曾经是那么的可以为你朋友付出，甚把他视为亲兄弟般对待，可是到头来你在对方的心里，其实只是个再也普通不过的普通朋友。你会失望和难过吗？这应该就是所谓的“一厢情愿”吧……可是我是在说友情的“情”啦！哈……

也许他说得对，我真的对你期待过高了。打从一开始，我们也许只能成为普通朋友。虽说能够和你认识到变成朋友需要一种缘分，但若要成为知心的话，那也是需要另一个缘分才可以的。从现在开始，我想通了，我不会再胡乱期望你会待我如知己，因为我知道我不是。我相信在你心中肯定有比我好一千一万倍的吧。这样，我应该比较不会那么难过，也不会再胡思乱想。我应该感到知足，因为我相信我身边还有真正待我如知己的朋友。例如说了那番话点醒我的“他”，谢谢你！^^ 还有的就是……时常陪我“练手指”的 bro 们……xD 虽然你们几个应该不会看我这部落格的，但我还是想对你们说声……谢谢！爱死你们了！xD

你肯定有過這樣的時候……

你肯定有过这样的时候

满满的眼泪苦苦的

鼻子酸酸的

像喝了一大口的雪碧一样

刺的眼睛和鼻子 泛红发酸

你肯定有过这样的时候

别人指着你的痛处哈哈大笑

你却只能傻傻地笑着

不然别人会说你开不起玩笑的

所以你笑弯了腰

连眼泪都笑了出来

你肯定有过这样的时候

心情不好的时候不想说话

别人却不屑地说你装什么大牌

然后拂袖而走

但是别人心情不好的时候

却容不下你安慰的只言片语

你肯定有过这样的时候

被人狼狈地指责一通后

有人相信你

却是陌生人

而你最亲近的人

却在这一刻皱着眉头

问你有没有这回事

你肯定有过这样的时候

浑身发抖的想冲上去和他们撕打

想辩解

想大声的哭出来说

不是这样！不是这样

你肯定有过这样的时候

铺天盖地而来的委屈

冲垮了你所有的理智

你多想什么都不管 什么都不用顾忌

却在心里疯狂

而表面冷静的想着所有的情节之后

却还是整理了一下自己仪容仪表

再潇洒的重复昨天过的生活

你肯定有过这样的时候

想洒脱的离开 洒脱的笑

洒脱放手说不爱

结果走人之后抱头痛哭

抽抽搭搭的哭得混身止不住的颤抖

愤愤的想诅咒所有的人

所有让你难过痛苦受伤的人

你肯定有过这样的时候

你想痛恨他们一辈子

可是最后还是妥协了

用最累 最虚伪

却也最和平的微笑

去迎接所有打击你的人和事

你肯定有过这样的时候

你做了很多迎战准备

却最后还是逃跑了

因为你怕失去所有的一切

哪怕这一切都是令你心碎的东西

可你还是不想失去

你固执并且懦弱的用微笑

去诠释所有的困难不过笑笑而置之

直到你倒下

你都没能将你的小宇宙爆发

我想说的是……

对自己好一点

因为没人会把你当全世界

Fast & Furious 5!

Watched this fantabulous movie today with my friend! One word from me to describe this movie - fantastic. You have to watch it, seriously. Surely no regrets one I can guarantee you. :P There were a lot of breathtaking scenes in the movie. A few of them totally stunned me up! I could hardly breath watching those dangerous and life-risking actions! *salute to the actors*

Alright, I don't wanna be a spoiler here. Watch it, and experience it yourself. By the way, the tickets that we purchased today were quite expensive (13 bucks!), as compared to the price that my other friends had paid when they watched it the other day. They watched it at MV on wednesday though. So I think the movie ticket prices on every wednesday are discounted (with student card shown to usher) for student price?  Nevertheless, I was definitely more than willing to pay for it! This movie is absolutely worth paying even a little higher to watch. :)

The Voice Within - Christina Aguilera

Young girl don’t cry
I’ll be right here when your world starts to fall
Young girl it’s alright
Your tears will dry, you’ll soon be free to fly

When you’re safe inside your room you tend to dream
Of a place where nothing’s harder than it seems
No one ever wants or bothers to explain
Of the heartache life can bring and what it means
When there’s no one else, look inside yourself
Like your oldest friend just trust the voice within
Then you’ll find the strength that will guide your way
You’ll learn to begin to trust the voice within

Young girl don’t hide
You’ll never change if you just run away
Young girl just hold tight
Soon you’re gonna see your brighter day

Now in a world where innocence is quickly claimed
It’s so hard to stand your ground when you’re so afraid
No one reaches out a hand for you to hold
When you look outside look inside to your soul

Life is a journey
It can take you anywhere you choose to go
As long as you’re learning
You’ll find all you’ll ever need to know
(be strong)
You’ll break it
(hold on)
You’ll make it
Just don’t forsake it because
No one can tell you what you can’t do
No one can stop you, you know that I’m talking to you

我懂了

我在进退的路口
我看不见了天空
我快乐吗我也好想躲一躲
到你的胸口
我的喜悲你的自由
就像彩虹短暂逗留
你快乐吧你找到你的出口
你真的自由
我不爱过就不懂寂寞
我不难过泪又怎么会流
爱的够重伤的够痛证明我爱过
幸福走过才浮现感动
幸运的我曾拥你的温柔
你的笑容还有你问候都让我心动
你喜欢过你沉溺过你残忍过
这一刻我都懂我真的自由
我的喜悲你的自由
就像彩虹短暂逗留
你快乐吧你找到你的出口
你真的自由
我不爱过就不懂寂寞
我不难过泪又怎么会流
爱的够重伤的够痛证明我爱过
幸福走过才浮现感动
幸运的我曾拥你的温柔
你的笑容还有你问候都让我心动
我不爱过就不懂寂寞
我不难过泪又怎么会流
爱的够重伤的够痛证明我爱过
幸福走过才浮现感动
幸运的我曾拥你的温柔
你的笑容还有你问候都让我心动
你喜欢过你沉溺过你残忍过
这一刻我都懂我真的自由

I'm back to this blog!

I didn't mean to abandon the blog for so long! But sometimes I really don't have the mood to write, or to type? Hahaha and most importantly, there was nothing much to share with, even if there was, it wasn't surely a good thing to be discussed of here. Hehehe

Well, as usual, another new semester has just begun, things are a little bit different now. I mean something. But, I am not going to explain it here anyway. Life still goes on. =) Gotta promise myself to work harder this semester. My results for last semester were a mess of shit! Way lower than expected. Truly felt let down gosh...

Anyway, I had a very fun trip during the sem-break! with my friends and one of them is from Kuantan, the place we headed to, so basically there was no need for us to worry about our accommodation and ways for exploration in there! :) It was my first time being there and I truly enjoyed the trip. I could totally get all troubles off me and relax, enjoy to the max, especially during the time spent by the seaside. The view was absolutely fascinating. I loved it. The kite, the bubbles, the monkeys, the foods, the friendly people, and my friends. :D

There were also some other places that were interesting, such as the Bukit Lembing. But it wasn't definitely my most favourite part because I didn't really enjoy climbing it! xD Worse than Broga Hills..... However, I got rid of all the regrets and fatigue as soon as I reached to the top! xD I got to witness the first ever beautiful sunrise in my life. So nice..... We also went to some other places after that, but I feel lazy to write up here. :) You can feel free to view the photo albums uploaded by my friend on FB through my page if you want to. ^^

I definitely hope there will be trips like this in the future. Memorable and enjoyable one. :P

我只想说。

我只想说……
其实，我不是像外表那么的坚强和开心……
一直以来，我们都在练习微笑，终于……我们变成不敢哭的人。
我一直告诉我自己，要让自己变幽默。
因为，我知道幽默的人就是一个人想哭的时候……还有笑的兴致。
有时候坚强，并不是什么好事情。
因为，有些人会认为你坚强，所以觉得伤害你问题不大……
于是，一再而在的伤害你。







Well, don't worry. Everything is gonna be alright. =)